2 years ago || A special throwback thursday

Two years ago today was an experience of a lifetime.

I woke up early that morning and Josh drove me to a scheduled appointment with my acupuncturist, whom I adore. Nobu Wago is by far the best acupuncturist in Atlanta. 

His words were calming to me. 

While inserting one of the needles he said, "This one increase blood flow to uterus. 

Perfect for IBF {IVF} to work." <--- Insert your best Japanese accent here.

The session was quicker than normal but just as relaxing as every other session I had before. 

I quickly exited the building and hopped into the car with my guy.

He had went down the street and gotten me a yummy breakfast sandwich from Subway since it's usually not a good idea to eat before acupuncture. 

I could only eat part of it because my nerves were a wreck and I was full of water. 

I had already downed 16 ounces of water and was working on my next 16.

My Reproductive Endocrinologist recommended 24 ounces of water before doing the embryo transfer. 

We arrived 30 minutes early and were taken back only a few minutes later. 

They gave me a super stylish gown and hair cap to change in to. 

Can you say trend setter?

I should have just stepped out on to a runway. I was that hot. 

See for yourself below. 

Then Josh was given his super snazzy scrubs, hair cap and mask.

Can you say hottie!

Taking pictures of one another and selfies helped to ease my nerves and pass the time until they called us back along with praying, hand in hand, for our unborn child(ren).

See that Turvis of water? Well I have always drank a lot of water and in this case was an over achiever. I started having really bad pains and had to potty SUPER bad!

I was literally in tears. I was still swollen and bloated from stimulation and retrieval. 

They let me run to the restroom quickly and potty for a 10 count. 

You know one one-thousand, two one-thousand, three one-thousand.... you get the idea. 

I did so and was STILL in pain. 

They went ahead and took me back to the retrieval/transfer room and checked my bladder with the ultrasound machine. My bladder was huge and full of water. They asked me to empty my bladder for an additional 15 count. 

I did so and we were all set to move forward.

{We had way too much fun taking pictures of ourselves.}

Everyone got all set up and they transferred two little embryos.

Then we were given this picture of them. 

This is technically Kensington & Quinn's very first picture. 

Looks just like 'em huh?

It's so weird to say this and unless you have experienced IVF you may or may not understand but my heart was attached to these embryos the minute I saw them. 

They were Josh and myself put together. 

Our embryos. Our babies. 

I loved them and prayed for them the moment I saw them 

{and every day before and after, for the rest of my life}.

This transfer was not like the other I had experienced. I was much calmer and more relaxed. I'm sure having acupuncture sessions before and after helped in that category but through the whole process I prayed for a positive attitude, to stay clam and for his will to be done. 

Honestly, the prayer for a positive attitude was key for me. It was so easy for me to worry or be negative from experiencing so much hurt along the way.

I wanted needed to be positive. 

If my mind was in the right positive state then my body would have positive energy and flow which would also bring calmness. 

I felt like God had his arms wrapped around me, that day, because the worry that was there the first go 'round had vanished and excitement had replaced the fear that typically had me on my knees in tears. 

This time I was on my knees in prayer and worship. 

I knew this was it for us. I knew it in my heart. 

Linking up with Annie and Natalie.

Linking up with Jennifer.